I Forgive you!!!
Today I am going to start working toward liking and loving myself. Starting with acknowledging the things I am mad at myself about and forgiving myself.
Note to self…
You must be honest with yourself. Most of these things you were aware of. But you ran from them. Some things you didn’t really know how to change, others it was easier to keep rather than put the effort into changing them. You were not only boggled down with outside things, you were lazy. Some things, like those from your childhood, you were too young to know how to change or understand why they were that way. So those things are not your fault, they were in some way, out of your control. The good thing is you are facing these things today head on. You are acknowledging them and are looking them square in the eye and telling them that you will overcome them. You know that just saying “I forgive you” isn’t enough in this case right now because you don’t totally honestly forgive yourself for everything. But you will work on it a little each day. You also know that there are things about you that you can begin to change by doing something different. At first it may appear to be out of character and your comfort zone but eventually it will begin to feel natural and will be effortless. You also know that in order for these changes to take place it must be a conscious effort since they are not naturally who you are, or at least haven’t been since you can last remember. You are creating a new you. You have a lot of work to do, however if you pace yourself and be honest with yourself about what can be completed, conquered and attained you will eventually do it. All of it. However, the reality is this will be a lifetime effort. You will face obstacles that will challenge/tempt you to go back to your old ways. You must remember, no matter how uncomfortable who you are is to you right now, it is still safe and familiar to you so it is thus easy to go back to your old ways, or never attempt to change these ways. You have to put on the armour of God and fight. By the way, don’t not forget that you have the help of God to HELP pull you through. The key word here is HELP because He is not going to do it FOR YOU but upon your asking HE will facilitate the process. It is not going to be easy but it will be worth it. Like your BFFL said.. you WILL be okay. :-)
